Clever ain't wise

Anonymous asked: I'm sorry to hear you were sexually abused. I was as well and it's devastating especially when it's by a relative.

I couldn’t imagine, that is horrible. Mine wasn’t quite as severe, but If you ever need to talk never hesitate. I would love to help if I could in any way

just had such a bad episode, I’m never gonna be normal. I would say I’m scared for my life but right now this is my life. I’m the only one who can make it stop, but the battle lies within me and sometimes I just get too weak.

I just wish I could look people in the eyes and be like no no it’s okay, don’t worry, I’ve finally changed. 

Anonymous asked: 2, 4, 8, 11, 15, 18, 30, 40

2. You talked to an ex today correct? nope

4. Is trust a big issue for you? My biggest, I put so much trust into people because I don’t get why it’s so hard to be honest, loyal, reliable, and doing what you say. It really fucked me up, I hope I ease up.

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? I think it’s disgusting when anyone gets really wasted, but I’ve been there. Anyone who hasn’t is lying. It’s the difference of doing it everytime you drink or just having a little bit too much. 

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? My one friend chris, and my father. I hope I can trust a guy again.

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? Nope, I’m not going out with anyone.

18. The last time you felt broken? yesterday… today was better thankfully but I’m sure I’ll feel broken again soon, just gotta stay strong.

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? Yes, but after that I don’t believe in anymore. I usually cave and give 3 but I just wasted 2 n a half years of my own life/ sanity/ self-respect by giving more and now I’m sorry I did. 

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? because he’s gorgeous and I wanted to.