every time you
tell your daughter
you yell at her
out of love
you teach her to confuse
anger with kindness
which seems like a good idea
till she grows up to
trust men who hurt her
cause they look so much
I hope you look for me in everyone you meet.
There was actually nothing beautiful or poetic about it.
You shattered my fucking heart.
I just want somebody who will never stop choosing me.
i am mine.
before i am ever anyone else’s.
People get drunk
They hook up with the wrong person
And pretend to be okay
People act tough
And get mad
People will do anything to distract their heart.
They will do anything to distract it from missing someone.
Before you know it it’s 3 am and you’re 80 years old and you can’t remember what it was like to have 20 year old thoughts or a 10 year old heart.
Most days I wish I never met you because then I could sleep at night and I wouldn’t have to walk around with the knowledge there was someone like you out there.
My forgiveness is no good to you, nor is yours to me; whether you forgive me or not, you will always be a sore place in my heart, and I in yours—so it must be.